I watched a few videos of John Bytheway on YouTube yesterday. One of them talked about a man who made the choice every day to be happy. One day he went to work and when he entered through the back service entrance the door was unlocked. He was held up at gun point and the robbers demanded he give them the money from the safe. As he tremblingly tried to open the combination his hand slipped and one of the intruders shot him. The robbers ran as the man sank to the floor, wounded. He said he remembered thinking that he could choose to die or he could choose to live. He wasn't ready to die so he chose to live.
eventually this man found himself being prepared for surgery to remove the bullet and repair the damage caused from having been shot. He said he looked at the doctors and nurses and their faces were grim as if they didn't expect things to go well. He had been continuously saying to himself, I choose to live. When a nurse asked him if he was allergic to anything, he replied yes.....bullets!!! The surgical staff chuckled and he told the doctor that he was choosing to live so the doctor better operate as if he believed the man would live and be okay. Obviously the man lived to tell his story.
The reason I brought this up is because I have decided that I want to try harder to be happy. I can't completely help some of the depression and anxiety and I especially can't always control the pain. However, I can choose how I deal with it.
In the last month or so, I have heard from a couple people who have told me that I have inspired them with my story. The first being a member of the family who has a lot of health issues. He told me that because of my efforts in trying to get help, he was going to start pursuing help for his problems. He recently went back to work and I am praying that he will be successful.
The other person is a long-time friend of the family. My parents ran into her at Walmart a couple of weeks ago and began to chat. She told them that she has been struggling with her health and depression. She told them that from reading my blog, she had decided that if I can get through my problems so can she.
It has been a dream of mine that I could help at least one person through sharing my story. I have now helped two, even if it is just a little bit. I hope that I can help more, but then again that isn't the real reason I started this blog. The main reason for starting was to help myself, to have an outlet to express my thoughts and feelings and hopefully learn from the things I post. Helping others is a bonus.
I really don't have much else to say. My second try for my Social Security hearing is next week, on Wednesday the 13th. Hopefully things will turn out for the best.
One last thought. I am working on adding another page about what I believe as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I hope it doesn't sound too preachy, but I am writing as a former missionary with the hopes that maybe I can reach somebody else in a different better way. To be honest, the Church has played a big role in where I am today so I felt the need to share. Be sure to check it out!