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My first blog entry

1/20/2014

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So I have decided to start a blog to share some of my thoughts and feelings about overcoming the adversities in my life. I want to start by sharing a few of my favorite quotes and scriptures.

"Life is full of difficulties, some minor and others of a more serious nature. There seems to be an unending supply of challenges for one and all. Our problem is that we often expect instantaneous solutions to such challenges, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required."
-President Thomas S. Monson

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
- John 14:27

As many of you may know, this past November I intentionally overdosed on Tylenol and some other random pills. I have struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life. I was going through some difficult times and I decided I didn't want to live with the trials anymore. I went to one of my favorite places where I usually go to try and feel peace. I then took the pills with half a bottle of cough syrup.
I don't really remember much about that day. I had written a text to my counselor, bishop, and stake president that I had intended to send when I thought it would be too late. I must have sent it because I vaguely remember answering a phone call from my stake president asking me where I was and to stay there because he had help coming. I kind of remember wondering why he sounded like he was crying. I sort of remember getting in the ambulance but that is about it.
This all happened on a Friday morning. The next thing I recall was waking up in ICU and it was Saturday. My first thought was how did I get here and then as I remembered
I felt disappointment that I had not succeeded.
Since that day I have had a lot of ups and downs. I still have a long way to go to overcome this adversity in my life. I have been seeing my doctor and counselor on a regular basis. I am also seeking help from my church leaders. I am trying each day to trust in the Lord. I know if I can have enough faith I can overcome anything through the Atonement of my Savior, Jesus Christ.
Today is a good day overall. I have a headache and can't talk very well due to a cold and sinus infection, but the feelings of depression and anxiety are small. I won't guarantee that every post will be positive. I also will try not to post a lot of negative. The main reason I am starting this is for my own benefit. If I can help someone else in return, all the better.
Thanks for reading!

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Jonathan Plowman link
1/20/2014 07:20:55 am

Jen, as a friend and someone else who lives with depression and anxiety, thank you for your courage in posting this. I didn't know about what happened in November. I just want to let you know from my own point-of-view that I know that the road is difficult and that all can be well. I will be following this blog and look forward to reading your future posts.

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Ron Jones
1/20/2014 09:12:49 am

Good for you for starting a blog! I think it will be very therapeutic. I can see your blog having a lot of religious and LDS influences. I think you should come up with a catchy title like "Depressed Mormon Girl" or something like that. Something that others will immediately understand what the blog is all about. I would also encourage you to find support groups on Facebook and share your blog. You will be incredibly blessed by the support you will find and your blog will help others also. There are depression support groups, LDS support groups and Fibro support groups (I can email you some links for those if you like). However, I'm not sure how the Fibro crowd would react to the heavy LDS material, but they are really supportive. Keep reaching out to others and you will bless them and they will bless you!

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    Jennifer Gardner

    I am an active member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I struggle with anxiety and depression on a daily basis. I have also recently been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. I created this blog to share some of the things that I deal with and the ways I handle them and cope.

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